The Possibility of an Island

Lunes, July 2 14:16

Rare weekday off. Cleaning the house to make it look like i am moving. Took a break for a tasty egg salad sandwich ( i always make it fresh in this heat!). Yesterday was nice and cool.
Kristen, the 24 year-old daughter i never wanted, is on her way to Galicia. Miss her, i shall. The kids are all gone now except for cousin Sydney. Alack, I am an empty nester.

GRIM VISIONS OF THE FUTURE
A book i just kicked that's a great read is THE POSSIBILITY OF AN ISLAND by Michel Houellebecq. Wow! Grim but facinating. And you thought Piere Boulle (Planet of the Apes) and
Camus were dark! Damn baby. French authors need anti-depressents.

Earthquakes, ice age and war have left the planet decimated. Human being run around in packs like animals. The only survivors are neo-humans: cloned from original humans by a religion as a form of immortality. One of the most original, twisted, existential and human stories i have ever read.

INTERCAMBIO
Is a language exchange. That was how at met Patricia (Doh!), at the J&J bar. So, i was looking for work on this website, lingobongo.com, and saw an add by a 32 year old woman who
wanted to practice english and teach Spanish. We met last Tuesday and she's awesome! Very mellow, and funny! We hung out for like 3 hours on Tuesday evening and then spent like 8
hours together with her yesterday. Nice gal. Spanish, long straight dark hair, skinney as hell (needs to eat a steak - i like women curvy). So that has been fun. We'll see what else happens.
She used to be a teacher.

We ate lunch at wok place and celebrated her birthday (she's 33). She asked me about playing drums and i taught her some simple stuff at the table with chopsticks. She drummed around
with them all day long. She also used them like a ruler (with Penguin-like accuracy) the way the nuns did in school. She whacked me when I switched from Spanish to English. She's a taskmaster and seems to like it kind of rough.

lunes 17:21
THE NATURE OF EVIL
Well, my medicines are running out. They arrived in the states two weeks ago. Darth never answered my emails about it. I have been frantically trying to contact her via email and phone
(thanks to all of you who helped!) She mailed them on Thursday, the 21st. I told her I needed it by this Friday, the 29th. She sent it 6-10 business days, basically insuring i would not get it in
time (in order to save $30 that i will pay her anyway). After two weeks she emailed me late this Sat, said she would send me the tracking number. No email. I just called her. She said it left
the facility. I asked why she hadn't answered my emails, calls home and calls to her cellphone. She said she was in canada and out fo range - but she had three days to email me from home.
She asked if I got her long email this morning - there was no email. She started yelling and said i should have ordered it earlier (It was a month ago - 2 weeks is a lot of time to get to Europe). I just asked her for the tracking # and told her I 'd take care of it.

Then, when i found out how she shipped it, I said, "That's why. It hasn't been 10 business days yet!" She yelled and told me to shut up. I pleaded, "Just give me the tracking #". She hung up. She hung up on me from Europe, and didn't answer when i called back twice. So I am screwed. Already out of one med. Run out of the most important tomorrow. I am hamstrung. I've tried to get them here but no luck. The last pharmacy told me they don't have either of my meds in Europe. Hard to believe.

And then I thought about the nature of evil. How does it get to this?

I think some people are capable of lying to themselves until they actually believe it.

I think some people, when they realize they have made a mistake or done wrong, turn their anger on the subject they have wronged.

I think some people need a good kick in the ass.

I don't say the preceeding to besmirch her name (she does that just grand herself!). I just can't understand. In what way have I not been accomodating? Ever since we've been seperated
she's been living in OUR HOUSE while i pay rent. Someone or someboday please help me understand. I think it's horrifying that people who once loved each other can do such monstrous things to one another.

Now let's be candid: I'm no angel (Laughtrak played here). Quite the contrary. In fact, if God is anything like the Catholic Church portrays him, I would have been raising my hand to be cast out of Heaven, right behind Lucifer. But it's been a rare occasion when I've pre-meditatedly tried to hurt people, and in the end it was no fun at all.

Hmmm. Curious to see what I'll be like when I'm off the meds and not heavily sedated. Maybe I can find a 24 hour shock treament place.

4TH OF JULY
I will have some kind of party with friends at Casa de Monos if i still have a place to live. We had some kind of blast in Jamaica all those years ago,. I think i gave the guys off that day. It's always very emmotional to be out of the states on this day. Besides, i'm a sucker for a good barbecue.

UK TOUR DATES
I'm looking at multiple dates in the UK in late July, with London assured. Been years since I toured London.

DEATH IN THE AFTERNOON
The running of the bulls in Pamplona is this weekend. Loco. I think Sydney is taking the MEAN GIRLS to see it. I think poor Syd is starting to wonder why the hell she's friends with these
girls in the first place. The dark haired one worships the Alpha Blonde. Syd seems to be in Admin, not sure. But Alpha Blonde does have nice tits. She was breezing out her right one
(hooter a la dercha) in the metro last night. Everyone wants to be Lyndsay Lohan.

I want prescription drugs, a roof over my head and Maria. Is that so much to ask?