Abandoning Osgiliath

Screaming, screaming for vengeance
-Judas priest

Martes 16:43

Looks like my last class blew me off. Yee hoo! So now i am back ing up my computer because i sometimes get a core failure notice and i lost some work yesterday. I have a lot of lessons on this fucking thing so better to be safe than sorry! It's 45 minutes into class now, so i can bail as soon as this finishes backing up to the external hard drive. Then i go to the Guzman El Bueno Metro (I have no idea what was so good about Guzman) and teach Miguel Angel, an 18 year old kid. Nice guy. Beautiful day today. Maybe like 68 degrees, 20 celsius.

Today in one class we talked about American and Spanish politics and how marketing affected the 2002 American presidential election. It was sweet.

Tomorrow is October 17^th. It is the day we lost the baby I called Zira back in 2002. Four years later, by no mere coincidence, it was the day Darth and I separated. I'm okay with all of this. We move on. We're people and that's what we fucking do, we move on. I'm going to go to Getafe to see la Profesora tomorrow. I just realized the date. I think it's a good night to spend with her.

Jueves 11:11

You'll take my life but I'll take yours too
You'll fire your musket but I'll run you through
So when your waiting for the next attack
You'd better stand cuz there's no turning back
-Iron Maiden

It is with a heavy heart that i report that Darth has lied to me yet again, and gone back on her word and our deal yet again. She met with her lawyer and the accountant and she claims they told her she will encounter tax problems if she sells it on her own. Her email, which is cowardly way to break a deal with someone (but then again that is how she tried to tell me I was not Annie's dad ) said she was sure I would understand why she won't sell till the house is sold. Here's something I hope she understands this: Fuck you lying maggot-hearted strumpet!

My lawyer said she can still sign and is contacting her lawyer. Of course I leave for an intensive weekend course in Avila is 2 hours and will be hard to contact all weekend. I once again spelled it out for him that if he can't resolve this, he's gone.

I have a couple of ideas on how i can coerce her to give me MY money earlier. I have a lot of credit card and i am getting killed on finance charges. Even a portion of MY life savings would make my life easy.

Don't get divorced. I really wouldn't recommend it.

When this is all over, I never want to see or talk to Darth ever again. Never thought that I'd say that, but there it is.

We get so close near enough to fight
When a Russian gets me in his sights
He pulls the trigger and I feel the blow
A burst of rounds take my horse below

And as I lay there gazing at the sky
My body's numb and my throat is dry
And as I lay forgotten and alone
Without a tear I draw my parting groan

-Iron Maiden

By my best count, I have about 57 letters to write to family and friends who Darth may not have told that I am NOT Annie's father.

That poor little girl!

Good News Last

The good news is that I got that flat in a Pueblo Nuevo off the Linea 5 and 7 with a wrap around patio at a good price. I will rent it from Isidro, Maite's bro, and rent out the other room.

The bad news is that I was going to use MY money from when we settled to pay the deposit. Oh well. I'll figure some shit out.

Osgiliath is the last city the men of Gondor abandon in the Lord of the Rings. It leads to the last stand at Minas Tirith – the final battle between good and evil.

And that's where I'm at. If I have to sue her, I will. I am sad and tired, but goddammit I want what is mine and I want this over with. I didn't have an affair. I didn't make her go through paternity testing. I didn't lie. I didn't put her entire family through hell for 5 months.

But Goddammit, I'm going to end it. Here and now.

There can be only one.
-Highlander

Alright, half my shit is in a spare room at Maria's, who I will stay with till i can move in to my new flat, next weekend i hope. I am cleaning and leaving Maite's today, and taking a few things to Avila. The other half of my shit is divided between the local bar and JJ's car. If JJ's still alive as I haven't heard from him in weekes. I sure hope so. Some of my best dress shirts are in his fucking trunk and I'm a bit strapped for cash right now!