Normalized

I don't really hate you
I don't care what you do
we were made for this moment
me and you

-Peter Gabriel

I am happy. How nice to be able to say that! I like my job. Next week will be full time. I love Madrid. My Spanish is getting better. Chema and I can understand each other better every day. He and Anita got back from Iran yesterday. They had a nice time. They brought Iranian pistachios, which are delicious. He also brought me back a postcard of a place in Iran that was used as Naboo in Star Wars. It was very thoughtful.

He said they all hate Islam, hate their government and love Americans. But not Shrubby. “That's okay,” i said. “We don't like him either.”

So if i am happy here – why would i leave in July?

Arguably, i was blessed with a decent brain. However, i feel that some of my best decisions have been made with my gut. And my gut says go. We'll see who wins. I can always come back. Madrid will still be here.

My friend who is in an existential crisis suffers this dilemma. She is very smart, but it makes her feel isolated. And then she tries to rationalize things.

Rule # 3: Life is not rational.

If you can't face this, you are in for trouble. It's all about a balance of both heart and mind.

Let the Truth of
Love be lighted,
Let the Love of Truth shine clear
Sensibility,
Armed with sense and liberty,
With the Heart and Mind united in a
single
Perfect
Sphere.

-Rush

Well, I'm back to trying the Internet Dating thing. We'll see. I sent a few messages to women who's profile I liked. This is such a bizarre process. The things people write!

I'm a very careful and good girl.

Next!

For good or for ill, i know what i like.